I have had a negative relationship with food for as long as I can remember. Food has always been the highlight of my life, a way to celebrate, and a way to try to make me feel better. Someone graduates, let’s get some food. You won a big game, let’s get some food. You had a bad day, let’s get some food. I haven’t seen you in a while, let’s get some food. Food, food, food. Now I’m not talking about getting salads and fruit. I am talking about the rich, high fat, high calorie, full of animals and always taste good food. Nothing like the Standard American Diet (SAD) to make you feel better. Briefly.
My unhealthy relationship with food started when I was in the 4th grade. Right before puberty and during puberty. I started binge eating and sneaking granola bars, chocolate bars, cereal, macaroni and cheese, anything that tasted good and helped me indulge. I have gone so far as to eat food hiding in a private area such as outside the door of the garage or in my room with the door closed. On top of this, we also went out to eat quite often when I was a child. Burger King Whoppers, large fries, and regular soda were a regular in my life along with Ultimate cheeseburgers from Jack in The Box and a half dozen of rolled tacos at any time of the day or night. I loved to eat. We drank soda like it was water. I would pour two cans in a glass and drink that, regular and diet, for as long as I can remember. It was a routine to eat out breakfast in the morning on Sundays and we would have these large omelets, hashbrowns, toast, butter. Sometimes I would get an English muffin because that is so much healthier…right?
This SAD relationship continued through my teens, twenties and well into my thirties before I started getting things under control. I had been on all the fad diets, tried low fat (which turned out to be high sugar or manufactured sugars), I tried high protein, no processed foods, I did it all. I had some success with The Whole 30 where I cut out pretty much all carbs except potatoes and ate mostly meat and greens. This worked for me, but I was already close to my goal weight and healthier than I had ever been. Also, I didn’t realize that feeding my body all that animal fat may have been helping me lose weight, but did not help me in the long run. I noticed my tolerance for exercise decreased and I was becoming more fatigued on the days I did try to work out.
I finally got control of my food intake and weight when I was running 8 miles 3 days a week and working out hard the other 3 days a week. I would do Insanity workouts, weight training and cardio mixed work outs, and like I said ran 8 miles 3 days a week. I was killing myself with exercise and obsessed. I got down to the lowest weight I had ever been in my adulthood at 184. Did I maintain this weight? Nope. Did my weight go right back up to over 200 when I got pregnant with my second child? Yep. Did I get it right back down after I had my second baby 3 years ago? Nope.
In December of 2019, I started listening to this book called “How Not to Die” By Michael Greger a physician and disease expert who focused on how changing your diet can reduce or even reverse your disease processes. The main catch, you have to eliminate all animal products from your diet. No meat, dairy, oils, sugars, added salt, etc. Only whole food and plants. At first I was skeptical. I mean, I have been eating meat my entire life and everyone talks about how important it is to get plenty of protein in your diet. How can I get protein if I don’t eat meat and how can I give up all this stuff when I live with three other people. I can’t transition to this crazy extreme diet. There was no way! Little did I know, there is protein in plants too! Luckily, I had a coworker and friend who was thinking about progressing toward the same diet. She had been reading up on a “Vegan” way of eating and was thinking about giving up all meats except for eggs. We both started this journey about the same time, which helped a lot. We were able to share our struggles, recipes, and cheats. By the end of January of 2020 I had officially transitioned to a plant based diet. I haven’t not had any meat products since then and don’t really miss them. At first, I lost about 20 lbs by March and was starting to feel great and really happy with my decision. Then, the pandemic struck and my diet took a negative turn.
Once we were forced to be home, I started adding in more processed foods. I ate more tortilla chips, potato chips, plant based dips, guacamole (home made, but still full of fat with avocados), plant based processed foods such as tempeh bacon and vegan foods from restaurants, again! Me weight started creeping back up and I was getting frustrated. Why am I not losing weight? I don’t eat animals and I am not eating dairy! I never thought about transitioning back to meat products though. I have done enough research to know how bad these foods are for our bodies and I do not want to get back into that rut again. My cholesterol had been high since I was in my 20s and once I transitioned to no animal products, it is below 200 consistently! That is HUGE for me!
After months and month of struggling, I finally had a wake up call. I was eating a vegan diet, but I was not eating plants! I was getting most of my food from tofu, chips, guacamole, plant based processed dips, breads, etc. I was no longer cooking my food and eating whole vegetables and fruits. I was no longer staying on that healthy diet that I started out with in the beginning of the year. I had gotten down so low that I even looked into doing a diet that would have cost me 350 bucks a month! I would be eating foods that were sold by this company and have 1 meal of my own. So many people I know have lost a lot of weight on this diet, and they claim that it’s low sugar and low fat. However, when you look at the products, the second ingredient is sugar. This, obviously, was not the answer to my issue.
About 6 months ago, I listened to a book by Dr. Fung about Intermittent fasting and it’s role in curing type 2 diabetes and insulin resistance. At the time, I did not think I would be capable of doing this kind of diet. I could not give up dinner. My family needed me to cook dinner! I needed to eat dinner. Wouldn’t I starve if I didn’t have dinner??? Boy was I wrong. I finally decided I would try this intermittent fasting. I decided to do an 8:16 (* hours eating window with a 16 hour fasting window) eating to fasting ratio and I would stop eating food around 2P everyday. I started using a fasting app called “LIFE” that tracks fasting time for you, thanks to my friend Beth, and “MyPlate” so I can track all my food and see exactly where my calories are coming from. Since beginning this fasting at the begging of this month, I have lost a total of 12 lbs. 12 lbs that I have been struggling to get off for the past 6 months. The best part is, I have not had to run 8 miles 3 days a week and exercise hard the other 3 days a week to lose this weight. I have been able to lose weight taking days off from exercise or only exercising 4-5 days a week vs 6. I have been feeling good, haven’t had much fatigue and have been able to stave off any hunger pangs with coffee and water in the evenings.
This is the first time in my life that I feel like I have control over what I am eating and don’t feel like a slave to food. I almost have to remind myself to eat before 2P as I might not be hungry. I have cut down on my breakfast in the morning and am even thinking that is becoming too much, I will have a smoothie about mid-morning that keeps me full until close to 2p when I have to remember to eat my late lunch/early dinner. I have added in more whole foods and gave up my vegan junk food for the most part. Yesterday I had chips for the first time and this was my first craving I have had in almost 3 weeks.
I will continue as this journey until I reach my goal weight of 170. I am finding it helps a lot to journal about my experience and now I’m trying to blog as well. I never thought that I could be overweight and a vegan at the same time. Now, I know even if food is “vegan” it doesn’t mean it’s healthy.
Some great resources if your interested in the whole food plant-based lifestyle or even intermittent fasting:
- “How Not to Die” by Dr. Michael Greger, MD
- “How Not to Diet” by Dr. Michael Greger, MD
- “The Obesity Code” By Dr. Jason Fung, MD
- “The China Study” By T. Colin Campbell, PhD
Dr. Greger also has a free website Nutrtionfacts.org where you can access videos and articles about nutrition. You can even join and email group that will send you a video almost everyday with nutrition facts from Dr. Greger.